Dr Horowitz does a wonderful job on Today this morning in the short time allotted!  http://m.today.com/klgandhoda/chronic-lyme-disease-what-you-need-know-1D79878631


A beautifully written poem about pain and reacting to it positively. Absolutely love this!

Lyme Discord


As Lyme disease affects our moods, causes irritability, and incites rage, I suppose it comes as no surprise that there is discord in the Lyme community. 

It’s heartbreaking to watch one situation after another unfold in which Lyme warriors who have been accomplishing so much good battle against each other.  Frankly, this threatens the end goal of making our ONE LOUD VOICE HEARD! Sadly, what is being announced instead is how kind-hearted albeit ill people can defame each other and how many will join forces with each side. Silly.

Please stop the nonsense and do your wonderful positive work together for the benefit of the community as a whole!

Much love and healing to you all!

Letter to Lyme

Dear Neuroborreliosis aka Lyme disease,

Due to your presence in my life, so many things have been lost: My ability to drive, my ability to walk, my hobbies, my job, my freedom, my home, etc. The thing is that you’ve likely heard this from so many unfortunate souls who have had the displeasure of your company. What you may not have heard is how being forced to slow my supersonic life has changed me for the better. I was moving at such a fast pace every day that I didn’t have time to care for myself. This is likely how you moved into my brain so drastically. I was living beyond my means and working beyond my capacity to pay for everything. Life is simpler now. I have seen the best in some of my loved ones. I’ve seen how much they truly love me, and I love them even more for it.

No, I will not be thanking you as I long for some semblance of an active life again, but I will say that I do see the silver lining on the Lyme green cloud.





Be Prepared

Several days that found me laying in bed unsure if I could walk on my own power have led me to preparedness measures.

I’m now keeping my phone with me in the event I need to call for help although I’m not sure how my parents will react to such a call. My father is a tough guy, and I tend not to allow him to see much of my struggles. My mom, I believe, is fed up with my illness. I’ve always been the caretaker, and I think she is missing that me. I long to be that person again. Perhaps someday.

So, in an effort to avoid making that call, I now have my wheelchair tucked away beside the bed. It’s reassuring to know it’s there just in case.

Maybe this will pass without progressing to the point that I can no longer maneuver through the house on foot, but should it come to that, I’m prepared.

Reminder to Internalize

Health – It’s been so long since my last post. My sensitivities are crazy awful. It has been one month since I stopped antibiotics. I can’t possibly tell you all of the back stepping. I will not give in, however, and push to maintain my albeit limited activities everyday.

Love – Once more I have to say that I am extremely lucky to have a husband who is willing to be whatever I need. He has adjusted his life in so many ways to accommodate my illness. I loved him before and love him so much more today.

Internalize – After an extended period of verbally keeping my symptoms quiet with certain loved ones, a couple of short discussions in the last two days remind me to keep it to myself.

I despise symptom competing. There are others in my life who suffer from illness. I feel for them and wish them relief. I do not wish any of this on them, and when my symptoms suddenly become theirs, it troubles me for multiple reasons.

Are they coming down with these problems so much like mine because they are misdiagnosed? I pray it isn’t so but fear it is. Lyme disease is often misdiagnosed as MS, ALS, fibromyalgia, and many other chronic and deadly illnesses.

Is it a coincidence that they suffer from these things after I talk about them? The last thing I want to do is presume that someone I love is playing it up or suffering from a psychosomatic illness. Perhaps that they feel as I do shortly after I talk about it is simply a coincidence time and again.

These couple of recent talks confirm what I had decided last year, there are people in my life that I at one time could turn to with anything, but I no longer am able to confide in with a clear conscience.  For their sanity a well as my own, I will return to silence.

I would love to hear if anyone else has had a similar experience.


Lyme is on my Nerves!

My stretches away from the computer and all other electronics are growing longer.  Although reading has been difficult at best since 2010, it has become more troublesome as has the sound emitted from the computer.  The phone has been a huge problem.  It’s quite hard to explain the static-type sound that seems to reverberate in my brain.  The pulsing sensations are more severe than ever.  Perhaps I should consider an aluminum foil hat as my doc mentioned that Dr.  Klinghardt would recommend.  I probably should have done that for Halloween. 😉

The positive news is that the tremors and muscle spasms have died down quite a bit.  I’m so grateful for that!  I’ve also seen a dramatic decrease in joint pain with the strict removal of gluten from my diet.  These are positive steps!  Of course, I seem to be unable to take a step forward without the inevitable backward two-step.

My follow up with the eye doctor reveals a worsening of my optic nerve cupping.  This visit was wrought with bright-lighted testing through dilated eyes and was followed by days of the most severe headache I’ve had in some time, but it was the symptom that appeared a few days later that stopped me in my tracks.

I have never been stabbed or shot in the face; however, that is the only way I could describe this pain.  I primarily feel it on my right side from the front of my ear to the middle of my cheek.  It’s a very deep, face-splitting pain when it flares.  Now that it is irritated, I constantly have a dull ache on both sides, but that is tolerable and also runs up to my temples.  It is the intermittent pain that is impossible to live with.  So a call to the doc gets me a new supplement and removes one antibiotic.  Is this the best course to combat what I’m supposing are the bugs running a muck?  Again, no idea. 563px-Gray778_Trigeminal

So, I’ll be calling my local primary for help.  Hopefully, she’ll have some palliative treatment for what I have found out is Trigeminal Neuralgia.  Omg, I can’t imagine picking up the phone after completing all of my online tasks this morning.  Maybe I can request an appointment online.  Wish me luck.  😉

This is my Brain on Bugs.


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DSCN3123Yesterday was insane!  After a short, interrupted sleep, Mom and I left the house at 5:30 am and headed for Wisconsin to visit my LLMD.  My appointment was set for 9:30, and we needed time to stop for a break and food, of course!   I brought along my paperwork printed from 23andme and the resulting report from Genetic Genie as well as my Americans with Disabilities Act form from work to extend my “leave”.  Red tape.

My appointment was fruitful.  I don’t know if it was the lack of sleep, which you’d think that my body would be used to, or the fact that I consumed gluten for the first time in weeks merely 45 minutes before seeing him, but my muscle spasms/twitches were hopping.  Whatever caused it to happen at that particular time, I think it helped to get my point across.  Between my symptoms and my genetic defects which I know very little about, I’m once again being told that this will be a lengthy process. 

The genetic defect of most significance that I am fortunate enough to be homozygous (from both parents +/+) for is C677T.  This has something to do with methylation and affects how well my body processes food and such into useful nutrients.  Doc and his partner have been studying up on this and will review my printouts.  I had some bloodwork done to analyze this:  Homocystine, Vitamin B12, Methylmalonic Acid, and H-Comprehensive Metabolic Panel.

Due to my symptoms and the fact that I haven’t had an MRI since about 5 or 6 months after my bulls-eye rash, I am going to repeat the MRI and see if there is a significant change.  If so, we will likely pursue insurance coverage of a picc line.

My current medication and supplement list is below. This is only currently what I am prescribed and in no way am I saying that it is a cure or right for everyone.  My doc’s orders only.  Clicking on the list will allow you to open it.

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Of course, I couldn’t stop with one appointment.  Immediately after seeing my LLMD, we raced to University of Wisconsin Hospital and Clinics to the Speech Pathology and Otolaryngology Departments.  I equip_medical_laryngoscopehave been experiencing a sore throat and gradually roughening of my voice since 2010 (bit in 2009), so I, naturally, presumed it was Lyme related and have been living with it.  After my local primary referred me to a local ENT, she found some swelling and vascular damage, and I was referred up to UW.   I had an appointment with the Speech Pathologist first.  She ran some lovely spoken tests in which I repeated many ah’s, eee’s and ooo’s.  My raspy, gravelly voice sounded just wonderful performing these tests to be sure.  Then she took out this long, metal lighted camera that looked much like a slim gun.  

The pictures revealed a perfect right vocal cord working exactly as it should and with an amazingly straight edge and no vessels or marks visible.  The left one, however, was like a balloon, hard and full; it also had very noticeable blood vessels feeding into something.  This explains my throat troubles.  When the otolaryngologist came in to discuss my results and his recommendations, he let me know in no uncertain terms that this is highly unusual.  The problem is that the surface that can be seen does not let him know what is causing the ballooned appearance.  It basically could be anything, and he can rule out nothing without surgery.  When I paused before giving him an answer as to what I wanted to do (typical with a Lyme patient-we need time to process), he told me, “Don’t make a decision today. Go home and think about it.  But I want you to do one of two things within the next 72 hours:  Either you call to schedule surgery or you call to schedule a follow up for 3 months from now.  One way or the other, you can’t let this go.” 

So I have decided to have the surgery and be done with it.  I don’t need to worry about it for 3 more months.  Providing it is nothing too life altering, he will take care of everything, and I will go home the same day. 

Hmm, maybe if it’s some benign fluid build-up or cyst, I should request that it be cultured for spirochetes!  😉


This is my Brain on Bugs.


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Spirochaetales are slender, spiral-shaped, undulating bacteria including those causing syphilis and Lyme disease. This article briefs Tabes Dorsalis due to untreated Syphilis. It’s obvious to me that the complete denial that Lyme Disease could be anything like Syphilis when the two bacterium are in the same Family is blatant.  What would make anyone think that Lyme should be so different and not require treatment when left untreated for a significant time period?  A group of powerful officials could not possibly be so ignorant as to truly believe anything of the sort, therefore, the only conclusion is that the denial is purposeful.  What exactly are they hiding?

From National Institute of Neurological Disorders and Stroke

Tabes Dorsalis

Synonym(s):   Progressive Locomotor Ataxia, Syphilitic Spinal Sclerosis

What is Tabes Dorsalis?

Tabes dorsalis is a slow degeneration of the nerve cells and nerve fibers that carry sensory information to the brain. The degenerating nerves are in the dorsal columns of the spinal cord (the portion closest to the back of the body) and carry information that help maintain a person’s sense of position. Tabes dorsalis is the result of an untreated syphilis infection. Symptoms may not appear for some decades after the initial infection and include weakness, diminished reflexes, unsteady gait, progressive degeneration of the joints, loss of coordination, episodes of intense pain and disturbed sensation, personality changes, dementia, deafness, visual impairment, and impaired response to light. The disease is more frequent in males than in females. Onset is commonly during mid-life. The incidence of tabes dorsalis is rising, in part due to co-associated HIV infection.

Is there any treatment?

Penicillin, administered intravenously, is the treatment of choice. Associated pain can be treated with opiates, valproate, or carbamazepine. Patients may also require physical or rehabilitative therapy to deal with muscle wasting and weakness. Preventive treatment for those who come into sexual contact with an individual with tabes dorsalis is important.

What is the prognosis?

If left untreated, tabes dorsalis can lead to paralysis, dementia, and blindness. Existing nerve damage cannot be reversed.

What research is being done?

The NINDS supports and conducts research on neurodegenerative disorders, such as tabes dorsalis, in an effort to find ways to prevent, treat, and, ultimately, cure these disorders.

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